Drawing Near
It was beyond picture perfect today. We had a layer of snow last night on top of the sea ice that had moved in a couple of days prior. No wind, no clouds, abundant sunshine today. Everything looked pristine. It was so bright that I still had to squint through sunglasses.
This time of my deployment each season it's easy to start thinking about "lasts". I had my last housemouse and station meeting. This was my last Sunday hike up the glacier. This week will be full of them: last line handling, last GASH, last trip to Terra Lab, last view of the station as we slip away on the ship. I know the routine. People coming and going is routine around here. We all have temporary stays, nobody owns the place....not even crusty leftover winterovers who seem to act like they do.
The boat should be here tomorrow or maybe the day after that. A few people will arrive on this port call as a few others depart. I'll be heading north along with four other winterovers and a couple of home office types. I'll have familiar faces with me on the crossing of the Drake and when I arrive in Punta Arenas. We'll help each other out getting to our hotels, we'll meet for a last hurrah dinner and probably go to bed early. Airport the next day, we're mostly going to be heading the same way as far as Santiago. From there we splinter off to our chosen lives.
I don't get giddy with excitement for what is coming, not because I'm sad to leave or because it's somewhat predictable. It happens to be part of the life I choose. At the end of a long shift at work, it's my commute. It is different though, different from punching out a time card at a factory on a Friday afternoon. Nothing that routine. The fact that I'm leaving such a special place isn't lost on me. I spend so much of my time in this program saying goodbye to fantastic friends, the type of people you seem to only run across in Antarctica. My departure isn't different from anyone else's and I'm affected by this place like everyone else.
I'll leave here neither happy nor sad, but grateful that I had this experience.


